dekwi

dekwi kata:
kenapa english kau dapat 5, kau kan terror english.

dekyang:
aku amek higher level, band 6 tinggi,

dekwi:
takpe, sem 1 tak penting, kau score sem 2, 3 ngan final.


this is why i love having brothers :)

covering my head

tak tau lah kenapa lately macam pissed off gila dengan diri sendiri. kali ni bukan sebab IB, tapi sebab tudung. im sorry to say, tapi sekarang ni perempuan pakai selendang, terlampau banyak, terlalu ramai. i am no longer unique. geram betul, dulu tak nak pulak pakai selendang, ceh boleh tak nak emosi, yang penting tak patut la emosi kan, sebab selendang tu bukan bapak aku pun yang invent. lepas tu, dengan association dengan yuna. bukannya tak suka yuna, tapi macam setiap kali lalu je, orang macam cik yuna, cik yuna. tampar kang sales girl ni. omg, lepas ni nak kene figure out, style tudung apaaaa lagi yang ada kat dunia ni. -_-.

i am so proud of myself, sekarang ni macam jarang dah stress. i rasa sebab i dah give myself a bit of happiness. sekarang no longer tense bila im doing something yang not related to academic. although i stay up frequently, taapi best la jugak. hehe.

back to tudung, i rasa, for now, i pakai je lah tudung bawal tu. i need time to figure out. how to wear tutong.

new eyes

good news, i am now wearing my sanguine glasses and decide to see the glass is half full. i dont want to crowd my blog with dramatic post claiming im going to die. because i realize, i am going to be 20 next year. DARN IT! i cant imagine at the age of 20 i will still cry when people call me fat. hahaha.

im going to be big 20 next year, and at the age of 21 i can look for boyfriend. yaay :)

caffeine

i live with caffeine lately, i have decided to jeopardize my health to save other people life(becoming a doctor).

i dont know why i choose this route, i should have take some degree in literature or maybe journalism, hold on, i dont even have the sophisticated language to do a degree on that.

i should marry a rich guy and live happily ever after, but im not pretty to seduce them

therefore, i have picked this road, the one less travel, and do IB.

when the lamp is shattered
the light in the dust lies dead
when the cloud is scattered
the rainbow's glory is shed
when the lute is broken
sweet tones are remembered not
when the lips have spoken
loved accents are soon forgot.

i am living in stress atmosphere now, wanting to breath in, the smell of grass after rain, yet stuck in the midst of ferocious sun and envious humid.

ps: i want my sayang now. :(

walking on a toothpick

somehow, i hate myself for saying stuff, but not doing it.

i am very busy nowadays, yet i am writing this blog, doing silly things aaaand many more to list.

i have homeworks
i have ee to think of
and ia
and brunei conference
and yet, i am still here.
i am a very busy person
yet, here i am.

and though i realise it now, i am still here.

aaaah, i hate me.

double trouble

today was precisely fatiguing day. the normal torturing Thursday. i got irked by a girl, who simply dabbed me sanctimonious. well, she didnt exactly used that word, but it is one of my way to twist the story, so people went puzzled, so no one know who i was bitching about.

boleh tak nak cerita pasal kawan;

sejak dah berumur 18 tahun ni, walaupun pada zahirnya orang merasakan umur sudah 26 macam dah layak kawin, tapi hati ini masih tegar apabila orang membuat muka terkejut apabila mereka tahu umur baru 18. mungkin sudah pasrah sebab dah berbelas tahun hidup dalam badan yang sangat unik, orang kurus boleh ke main pura-pura jatuh tapi tak sakit sebab badan banyak lemak. okay ini dah jauh terpesong.

saya sangat beruntung sebab ada kawan

1. yang sanggup basuh tupperware bersama apabila tupperware tu lupa nak diambil dekat surau dan telah seminggu usianya ditinggalkan. kami tekad untuk tidak membuang tupperware, kerana kita tidak boleh lari dari masalah atau buangkan begitu sahaja. kita harus berhadapan, makanya, aku dan jiji sudah tahu apa bau kalau tinggalkan ayam seminggu dalam tupperware. nak cerita jugak bende penting ni, sebab supaya budak lelaki KMB lari dan jauhi aku. aiceh, macam ada je yang dekat. haha

2. yang sanggup gelak bersama apabila tudung tercabut dekat LRC (library). bukan senang nak tunjuk rambut dekat LRC tanpa kene tegur nanti dekat usrah. HA HA, berani kau tulis macam ni arlina. ceh, tapi betul lah, pengalaman tudung tercabut sangat indah dan kelakar, akan ingat sampai bila-bila

3. tiba-tiba rasa macam sayang gila nak mampos dekat jiji dengan chepik. kitorang dah macam adik beradik, and sebenarnya post ni dah lama gila ter-abandon. kata pun buat IB. sekarang pukul 2.53 am, tengah buat lab report. haha,

so, byebye. :)

notorious nocturnal

i am loving my notorious nocturnal babes, we call ourselves by that name because we study until late night and we were known as the loudest study group ever that exasperates the people all around us.

nevertheless, we are not the infamous clique that secure a place in the higher social hierarchy. still, we have a strong bond within each other that is powerfully built. i love them to death enough said. although we only knew each other less than a year, i treat them like sisters, and theoretically we are not, but in terms of other no-noun-can-describe-it, its an enormous yes.

have i mention how much i love them? if yes, i would really love to do it again to show how much i loooooovvveeee them.

we consistently without fail, have our " sesi hilangkan mengantuk" every time we did a study group together. it is in sooth, another nicer version of saying we gossip about others, especially people around KMB. to be frank, people are getting weirder at the present time.

anyway, new update, i was assigned to read a novel, and i simply went to the library, closed my eyes, and picked any book. UNFORTUNATELY, the book that i picked was a wrong choice, since it is irresistibly good. i just cant put it down. note that i use, unfortunately; IB means, hectic life, i just spent one whole evening reading that book till an extent i was living in my own world. although my friends did their maths homework, and i was being oblivion to others, i think i learned a lot today. numerous vocabs, that is what i be crying out for, TO GET 7 FOR ENGLISH.

i have a new mantra now, LONDON IS ACHIEVABLE, SO IS 45.

aand, if you see me jogging around KMB, do say hi and dont laugh. toodles.